The Sunday Salon (Dec. 25): On being stressed out and what to expect for 2012

The Sunday I don’t know if it’s just because I’m super stressed about moving, or if I’ve actually gone off book blogging, but lately I’ve been wishing I didn’t have a book blog at all. It feels like it’s an obligation, like I’ve trapped myself into this thing that I don’t want to do but I have to keep doing it because otherwise I’ll be a failure. It’s like I have to read so many books a week, and I have to review them all, and I have to network/comment on other blogs/go to book events/etc. to make the expense and the time I’ve put into my blog worth it. I can’t even properly go on hiatus because then every day I DON’T blog I’ll be wasting the money spent to host this thing in the first place.

Which is kind of a ridiculous thing to think! And I’m sure that as soon as we’ve actually made the move and that stress is gone, I’ll be fine and loving my blog again and I’ll want to read a million books and review them all. But right now I feel terrible.

It’s kind of unfortunate that the books I use to de-stress myself are packed up into the thing that’s causing me stress! I could really use a Diana Wynne Jones book right about now, or a Noel Streatfeild or even an Arturo Perez-Reverte. I DO have The Secret Garden on my Kindle, though, so maybe that’ll do.

I actually started reading Anna and the French Kiss because I thought that something light-hearted and kind of silly would cheer me up. And it worked! At least, it worked for the time that I was engaged in reading it. It’s when I put it down that I started getting stressed out again.

Whatever I’m feeling now, I do think that since I’ll be in a new state (physically and spiritually), surrounded by new things and hopefully having new experiences, I might not be blogging (or reading) as much as I did in 2011. For one thing, I’m hoping that a good chunk of my time will be taking up by a job, sight-seeing, and doing fun things like yoga (maybe?). For another thing, I want to get myself out of the rut I’m in, and that means doing more than sitting on my bed blogging all day. I’ve got a plan to force myself to be outside more, doing interesting things, and I’m not entirely sure how that plan will affect my reading/blogging. I’m guessing I’ll read (and thus blog) less, but…every time I say I’ll be blogging less I end up blogging more, so I don’t know what’s going to happen.

What I may do, in order to take lessen the “this is an obligation” feeling, is less formal reviews and more informal discussion posts…not sure yet. I may also blog more about non-book things (although my blog’s name is Birdbrain(ed) Book Blog soooo. Ugh, decisions. I don’t want to make any right now).

Do you ever feel like you’ve trapped yourself into doing something you don’t want to do? What do you do about it?

Anyway, now that I’m less than a week away from actually moving, and now that we’ve got furniture removal/guys who’ll load our boxes/etc. set up, I’m feeling less stressed out. Nearly all my things are packed, so now all I have to deal with is cleaning. Yay!

Also, I’m sorry if I get a bit behind on comments/visiting y’all/etc. I’ll get caught up in the new year!

Weekly Book Stats

Books read in the past two weeks:
167. Those Who Hunt the Night – Barbara Hambly [rating: 4] e
168. Anna and the French Kiss – Stephanie Perkins [rating: 4.5] e

Books reviewed in the past two weeks:
159. Dust and Shadow – Lyndsay Faye [rating: 4] e
160. Miranda’s Big Mistake – Jill Mansell [rating: 3] e
161. A Map of Home – Randa Jarrar [rating: 3.5] e
162. Weetzie Bat – Francesca Lia Block [rating: 1.5] e
163. Hunted – Cheryl Rainfield [rating: 3] e
164. Pastworld – Ian Beck [rating: 2] e

Books acquired in the past two weeks:
I’ve downloaded about 50 ebooks (and an audiobook)– all but one was free– and I don’t entirely feel like listing them all. 😛 Here are some of the ones I’m most excited about, though:

I’m planning on doing a wrap-up post on all the freebies and ebook deals I got over the year, if anyone’s interested. 😀

Currently reading:
I’ve got a paper book I’m reading! Yay! It’s Making a Living Without a Job by Barbara J. Winter. My mom gave it to me, actually. It’s nearly 20 years old so some stuff is out of date, but the second chapter (which I’m still reading) is all about raising your self-esteem and that pretty much works for whatever decade you’re in.

There IS a new revised version from 2009, though, if you’d rather check that out. It’s actually got stuff about the internet in it! Woohoo.

18 thoughts on “The Sunday Salon (Dec. 25): On being stressed out and what to expect for 2012”

  1. I know what you mean about feeling obligated. Work has been keeping me busy and thus has slowed down my reading. I’m not worried about it. I AM still reading, just at a much slower pace. My plan is to keep doing what I’ve been doing. I might not be able to keep up with 2/3 reviews a week but rather 1 a week. Maybe you’ll be the same way? Basically don’t worry about it. If people want to read your blog, they’ll still be here when you have time to post more again. 😀

    1. True! I have a hard time not competing with myself, though. I always want to do “better” than I did the year before, whether that’s through reviews or through reading more books than I did before. Trying to take it easy is hard, sometimes!

  2. I find that very true—the fact that when I decide to do other things, I end up doing more things across the board. You’re just more motivated when you’ve got a schedule or at least variety, and you end up actually working in, say, your book blogging block rather than surfing the Internet all day when you mean to blog. This has been incredibly true for me.

    If I feel trapped, I don’t do it. It’s your blog. You can do whatever you want with it. There’s no blogging police, my friend! I would personally love to hear your thoughts on non-bookish things!

  3. *hugs* I know how you’re feeling. Why don’t you take a break from blogging until after you’ve moved and settled in? That way you can concentrate on one thing right now: moving, without stressing out so much. 🙂 You know we’ll be here when you get back. Merry Christmas.

  4. It’s okay to take a break from blogging when you get busy with other things. I think anyone would feel overwhelmed if they were moving in a week AND wanted to read a certain number of books, etc.

  5. Yes. I get it! I totally took a huge break from book blogging this year. I think you should totally blog about what you want or just take that break. It will be worth it! So sorry about the move though, I know how stressful those can be.

  6. When I was doing my whole big move back in August, I didn’t want to be blogging at all. I put up a few post during the process of packing, but just took an entire week off around the move time. Take a break, breathe a little bit, and don’t do anything drastic until you’re a little bit more settled in your new place. Good luck!

  7. Like the others have said, most bloggers go through a period where they don’t feel like doing it. I’ve had several periods of unemployment over the past several years. When I don’t have a job, I love blogging. When I do have a job, blogging feels like extra work. To relieve myself of the guilt I feel when my blogging slows down, I remind myself that most people use RSS readers like Google Reader so they have other stuff to read. They aren’t obsessively going to my blog every day and saying, “Why hasn’t she updated it yet?” The RSS reader lets them know when there is something new so I’m not really leaving them hanging.

  8. I’m sorry that you’re feeling all stressed out from book blogging lately. 🙁 It always sucks when hobbies get to that stage. I hope that after the move, you can find a balance so that this becomes fun for you once more!

  9. Eeek! Don’t feel trapped! You can take a break and nobody will mind but will all just be delighted when you return. I sometimes feel anxious about my blog too, for the same reasons, like that I should keep up with it and it will be a problem if I don’t post things regularly, but if it ever got to the point where I felt resentful of it, I’d totally take a break.

    1. Thanks, Jenny! I think I just need to remember that no-one’s really judging me for not posting, even if it does feel like that, sometimes. 🙂

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